Atom bombs and blunt razors

In other news, I have lost my Scenic Fruit Company hat, and I am VERY upset overt this. That hat was the focus of like, four different outfits. I WILL NOT REST UNTIL IT IS FOUND.

I have no long speech to write today about the loss in New York. I have nothing to say, really.

I am hurt by the loss we felt today.

I am betrayed by the Democrats who swore they were on our side.

I am angry at the Log Cabin Republicans, who have immediately blamed the Democrats when not a single Republican voted yes. Not. A. One.

But there are things I am not, as well.

I am not surprised. Maybe that's what hurts most of all, but I expected this outcome.

I am not defeated. This fight isn't over. We are stronger and stronger everyday.

So I lied. I do, apparently, have something to say:

Bring it the fuck on.

It's time I confessed. I have this secret burning inside, and I can't hide it anymore.

I hate you. I despise you. I feel for you exactly what you feel for me: Revulsion.

Well, maybe not exactly. Where yours stems from fear, mine stems purely from anger.

If you voted Yes on 1, then you are one of two things: an idiot, or an asshole. Don't defend yourself to me. Don't explain your beliefs. Don't even talk to me unless you're willing to be honest and lay it on the line. Own your idiocy. Own your bigotry. Stop lying to yourself and expecting me to believe it.

If you fell for the lies spouted by the Yes on 1 campaign, you're an idiot. Gay marriage does not teach children how to have gay sex anyore than straight marriage teaches children how to have straight sex. We are not coming for your churches. The Proposition clearly stated that only churches who opened their doors to the public for marriage--to anyone who was not a member, and who had to pay for the space. When the church charges its non-members, it is acting as a public business, and a busines cannot constitutionally discriminate its customers.

All the information necessary to debunk the outright lies told by the Yes on 1 campaign was there. All it takes us being willing to read the bill yourself, do your own research, and come to your own decisions. Instead, you've let someone else make your decision for you. You're an idiot. And you have no business being involved in the governing of this country when you refuse to take it seriously. I hate you.

Or maybe you're just an asshole. You recognize the lies, but cannot see past your own bigotry to care. You justify your actions in the way you were raised and your religious beliefs, as if your religious faith has any bearing upon the life and well-being of another. You perhaps even encourage the lies. The ends justify the means, so what harm is lying to your allies to defeat your enemies? Anything to accomplish your goals, and hurt someone whose life doesn't matter to you. To pass your sentence on people whose actions have no effect upon your life. I could do as so many do, and say how I pity you. How thinking of how your hate must feel wells my throat, and I cannot contain my tears. But it simply isn't true. It is bile that wells my throat. It is venom and vitriol. These are tears if anger, because I don't have to imagine your hate. I feel it. I weep because my disgust threatens to consume me. I hate you.

You aren't going to read this. I can't say I blame you. I don't spend my free time reading your propaganda pieces, either. But someone will read this. And I hope they meet you, so they can tell you what you need to know.

You fancy yourself the hero. That's fine. I'm willing to be the villain. But I am a villain you have never before seen. And I am giving you a chance. Surrender. Give up. Stop fighting. Because you cannot defeat this. You cannot defeat us. We are never going to stop fighting. Surrender now, before I rise in the ranks. Because the rest of us might be willing to forgive you. But if I continue to be necessary? If I do play my hand, and lead this war to its only inevitable end? I will not be so kind. I will scour your presence from the very earth. History will not remember you as a misguided hero. It will not remember you at all. I will wipe you from the very annals of time.

This is your chance. I am still but a human. My hatred is not set in stone. But continue on this path, and I will change. I will give you a reason to fear us. And I will not be alone.

If you take one thing from this, let that be it. I am not alone. For every battle you win, you create more soldiers in our army. And everytime you think you've beat us, you make us stronger.

This is your first warning.

http://www.towleroad.com/2009/10/tvs-most-adorable-furry-couple-jake-gyllenhaal-and-elmo.html

I just wanna marry him and have like ten thousand of his babies.

IT'S SO WEIRD.

IT'S THE GREAT PUMPKIN CHARLIE BROWN COMES ON TONIGHT.

I know, not a big deal, but it's something that always brings a smile to my face. And things in my life are...not great at the moment. I need all the smiles I can get.

I love you all. I don't know where things are going from here, but I need to remind you all of that. With all my black heart, do I love you.

You're right, Grandfather.

I should have turned out better. I am a disappointment to our entire family.

I am an evil, manipulative, cold hearted bitch of a faggot. Thanks for the reminder. I've been feeling too human, lately.

One thing, though: See, I didn't turn out this way because I didn't have anyone to talk to growing up.

I'm this way because I had you.

Fuck yourself, old man. And die alone.

Sort of a weird question, but I know many of you hold faith in pagan ways or know lots of folks who do, so I figure y'all are the folks to ask:

Are there any online stores you would recommend for ritual supplies, herbs, incense or oils? I'm looking around but I don't really know what to expect, and I'm finding much more "Wiccan Jewelry" that I don't need and have no desire to own than I am honest-to-goodness suuplies.

Say "words!" in the comments and I'll respond with 5 words that I associate with you. Write something about them in your LJ.

(stolen from littledrow, of course)

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Gary Oldman in Bram Stoker's Dracula was the first time I'd ever felt sexually attracted to someone, and thus starting me wondering whether or not I might be gay or just bi.

And it doesn't matter how many times I watch that movie, I still can't help but think, "I would fuck the shit out of you SO HARD."

So yeah. Gary Oldman in Dracula.

I have something I would like to say.

I despise Perez Hilton.

I loathe him utterly. His actions sicken me. He is a leech, using and abusing anyone and everyone he can to gain his fame. He has no respect for anyone's personal choices, feeling that he is justified in literally dragging someone from the closet. I do not approve of the closet. I find closeted people to be largely insufferable. But I refuse to out them. It is such a personal decision that I could NEVER make it for someone else.

Perez Hilton does not speak for the gay community. He admits it himself. Furthermore, he has no solidarity with the gay community. Picking a fight with Carrie Prejean doesn't make him a hero. It's just him using people for his own gain again. It's what he does.

The man disgusts me on a personal level.

But he is still a sister. He is still one of my people, and I still love him for that. I still feel for him. His pain is still my pain. I may detest him as a person, but I could never hate one of my own.

And so when you say that Perez Hilton makes you wanna hate gay people, you're being a bigot. Because what you are saying is that you are looking for a reason to hate gay people. That the actions of one reflect upon us all. That we are all exactly the same. That we are non-people. We do not differ from one another. We are, each of us, the same in every way, shape, or form.

When you hate gay people because of Perez Hilton, why is that? What is it about his gayness that you hate? That he's a gossip columnist? Do you hate every culture/ethnicity/sexual orientation/religion/class of everyone who works at US Weekly? At Star? At People?

Do you hate him for the immaturity of his blog? The MS paint reduxed images of semen looking from celebs' mouths? What does this have to to do with his gayness? What about having the maturity level of a thirteen year old is gay?

Do you hate him for picking a fight with will.I.am? For calling him a faggot? Do you hate all black people because Isaiah Washington called T.R. Knight a faggot? Do you hate all white people because Fred Phelps waves his God Hates Fags signs everywhere?

You can hate him for being a gossip columnist. For being immature. For picking a fight with will.I.am. to preserve the mainstream attention he's getting now that he's picked a fight with a former Beauty Pageant contestant. But don't pretend that these reasons inexorably linked to the fact that he's gay. Don't pretend that these actions somehow represent him as a gay man, and represent EVERY gay man in the process. And if you do pretend that, then at least don't pretend that the problem is Hilton's. The problem is YOURS. And now, despite what Perez Hilton thinks, he IS a representative of the gay community.

Because when you hate him, not as an individual, but as a gay man? You hate all of us. And I will not silently accept your hatred.

Happy Father's Day, Dad.

Sorry I still can't forgive you.

So can I just say how HORRENDOUSLY arrogant everyone associated with Billy Elliot is? I mean, everytime they got nominated, they just looked like "We're going to win." Hell, the damned kids even STOOD UP when they got nominated, didn't even wait until they won.

I love you, Sir Elton, but please. Knock off the pretension. I, for one, have no interest in seeing your show. I'll take God of Carnage and Next to Normal any day.

I don't normally ask for things like this, on account of all my rampant atheism leading me to suspect it's value, but...

I dunno. Maybe it works. And if so, then I owe it to him.

My cousin's boyfriend was in a car accident today. Ran off the road, through several trees, and flipped his car ten times.

His neck is broken, and they had to remove his spleen. He's still in the ICU, and they're not sure if he's really gonna pull through. And if he does, there's likely to be major brain damage.

He's not someone I'm close to, really. But he's good to Leslie, and he's been good to her daughter even though it isn't his.

I don't really know how to ask for it, but...If you have the time and energy, please keep him in your thoughts.

( Issued from the White House earlier today )

( My Thoughts. )

......son of a bitch.

I'm still hopeful, don't get me wrong. But it'll have to wait until tomorrow.

If you'll excuse me, I'm done for the day.

At least the marriages which have already taken place aren't being annulled. That's something, right?

The California State Supreme Court is supposed to announce its decision on Proposition 8 today.

Crossing my fingers, toes, and everything in between.

C'mon, California!

So I worked three days this week, and still managed my forty hours. Yay for two fifteen-hour-straight days.

Now I'm gonna go crawl into a hole and die, and not necessarily in that order.

Before I do, though, something I wanted to share. These two songs are ones I've had for a while, and I've loved them since I first heard them, but they've been on the playlist a lot lately. Hell, occasionally, these two songs have BEEN the playlist.

So here are what I think might be two of the most beautiful love songs I've ever heard.

Gina Young--"punkrockdyke" http://www.sendspace.com/file/w9y4hv

Sam Sparro --"Black and Gold" http://www.sendspace.com/file/yplyqz

Off to cry (in the good way, don't worry) for a while, and then sleep for a day.

Love you bitches.

Boom, baby.

I need some assistance, Friendslist!

I have an application in for a character at Whedonverse RPG, by the name of Whistler. Demon. Wears a bowler hat. Appeared at the end of Season Two to get Angel's stank ass off a rat diet and to work as one of the good guys.

Was supposed to be on Angel too, but they used Doyle instead. Don't really know why. But I'm happy about it, because Doyle is total Irish Bisexual Crackhead love. (No really, the actor died a few months after the character did of an OD. YAY!)

Actually, come to think of it, every guy on the two series was a little gay for Angel. See point: Spike.

Anyways, here are the two suggestions I have. Comment and tell me which one you prefer (if you have an opinion on it at all, anyway), or suggest a new one if you like!

SO. WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, YOUR CHOICES ARE....

dapper_demon

OR

sideof_angel

CAST YOUR VOTES NOW!